Slowly Dying

I'd like to tell the whole world that I have officially lost my mind due to bed time hours of 4 am, 5 am..even 6 am. My eyes are wilting while I squeeze every once of brain juice out of my brains. 24 hours before this stupid thing I'm writing is due. I have no idea what the fuck I'm going on about.
NO FUCKING IDEA.

Beaches and sands, I love you ... but not right now, not today, not tomorrow, not until I actually get to enjoy and bask in you. For now, FUck you. Leave me alone.......!@#$%^^$#&

A new path?

I woke up with an epiphany. Many times I have thought about it, but today, for some odd reason it became really clear to me. My body tensed and my heart raced just at the thought of it. Is it possible? Can it actually happen to me? I've been given second chances to do what I want and this feels like it.

I called my mom out of excitement. I guess I started off the conversation in a very worrying way. I told her about my plans and to much disappointment, she was discouraged by my thoughts and plans. I understand her point of view and I totally understood her sighs. She said, "I thought you've got everything planned out? I really hope you graduate soon. It's starting to weight us down."

I felt bad even suggesting it, only because it's my life. But yes, I do see the bigger picture, I still need my parents to give me this life that I want. I know it's a risk to take but I'm going to do it, that is if I am given the chance to do so. It's a 50/50 chance of getting what I want at this point.

I know many silently laugh in their mind or even give me a smirk when I say, " Yes, I'm definitely going to get a job this time". After many attempts, I'm still jobless. But I hope I'm not underestimated again because this time it really does involve me getting a job next semester. This plan wouldn't work if I don't earn my own money, at least enough to feed and house myself after I move out of college. It's so simple just to think of it. I have to do it sooner or later so why not start now. Many might think that I'm a little bit too late but it's never too late for anything right?

Time to start moving.

Clock'o Life

Since I'm going to be quite antisocial for the next 5 days, I decided to draw myself a timetable. I got lazy and I came up with this.



I'm not looking forward to thursday. I've got 7 pm to indefinite to finish up something that I've just started. 104 words, 2800 words to go.

Gosh, nothing good ever happens after 2 am.

Unbelievable

TV series are one of those things that I cannot live without. I wait every week to indulge myself in the lives of fictional characters. It pleases my mind.

I know I'm one of those people that go , 'Omg, that guy in this/that show is super hot, absolutely gorgeous, what I'll give to have someone like that.' etc. etc. etc.

The one thing I do not do is take story lines and quotes from those shows and make it my own.

To read more, watch _____________.

Untitled.

I woke up this afternoon feeling terrible and useless. All I could think about was, how am I going to survive this week? How am I going to finish what I haven't started in 4 days? HOW how how how? I felt like kicking myself in the face for turning off the alarm 6 hours before. I could have had breakfast and felt much better. But instead I chose to lie and close my eyes and refuse to move. I don't know whats happening. I've been doing this for the past 2 weeks. Day dreaming and day dreaming like I don't have anything else to do.

I know I am way more what this.

While lying on the bed with my head buried under covers, I said, OKAY, I'm going to get out of bed. This is getting ridiculous. I pushed the covers and laid there for an even longer time. O_o. I turned to the left to look at all the stuff I put on my wall when I first moved in. They were pictures I drew. Many times I thought to myself, where did I get the concentration and inspiration to do something like that. Why have I turned into such a bum! I can hardly do one thing at a time now. I can hardly concentrate and think about my stupid assignment.

So to torture myself even further, I went on the uni site to check when my dooms day is, the day where I wake up really early to go on the uni site and close both eyes while scrolling down the computer screen. 11th July, a day before my birthday. What the HELL. I know I will be rocking myself to sleep, praying and pleading for a pass for at least 7 nights. I've been doing that since I started uni. Freak I know.. Imagine the relief flowing through my veins knowing that I only have another 6 months to go. Another 6 months to enjoy uni life + college life. Anxiety attack on board.

Wow I've wasted even more time just thinking of stuff to type while sitting here in my essentials and freezing in the cold, not bothering you move.

No more excuses.

I'm just going to...take a shower, lotion, dry my hair, check my inbox again, maybe clean my room...probably will clean my room, clear my desk, arrange my pens and recycle more paper. Then I'm going to commit myself to the really ugly last-week-timetable I made.

This made me get out of bed. I was happy when I wrote that. I going to happy myself now.

Of talents

This is the most random conversation. It's really stupid. I guess I'd be the only one that would find it funny. Note: loads of typo and grammatical error.

eVe "})i({" says: ohh.
eVe "})i({" says: u kwn wat
eVe "})i({" says: my makeup blogs
eVe "})i({" says: were talking abt this glur for double eyelids
eVe "})i({" says: tht so many actresses and bloggers swear upon it

a i ♥ says: what is that..

eVe "})i({" says: let me draw
eVe "})i({" says: hahaha
eVe "})i({" writes:

a i ♥ says: wtf is that!

eVe "})i({" says: put the glue on ur eyes

a i ♥ says: haahahahahha

eVe "})i({" says: hahahhHAHAHAHAHHhaha

a i ♥ says: ahhaah omg i have no idea

eVe "})i({" says: let me add description first la
eVe "})i({" says: shit man
eVe "})i({" says: i cannot stop lauhing
eVe "})i({" says: omg
eVe "})i({" says: i fell off my chair
eVe "})i({" says: ahahahhahahaha
a i ♥ says: ahahahahhaahhahaha

eVe "})i({" writes:



eVe "})i({" says: thn there's this stick thing
eVe "})i({" says: hahhaa
eVe "})i({" says: i still havent stop laughing by the way
eVe "})i({" says: stomach ache la

a i ♥ says: ahahahahahah

eVe "})i({" says: use the stick
eVe "})i({" says: put it on the place u wan ur double eyelid
eVe "})i({" says: thn open ur eyes
eVe "})i({" says: hold for a while
eVe "})i({" says: thn move the stick away
eVe "})i({" says: and WUAHLAAA
eVe "})i({" says: u have double eyelid

a i ♥ says: ahahah wait wait ahah what is the first picture
a i ♥ says: the red stuff

eVe "})i({" says: the red stuff is the glue
eVe "})i({" says: the blue is ur eye CLOSED
eVe "})i({" says: hahhahaa

a i ♥ says: aghahah the ahahaahhaha
a i ♥ says: ahahahahahahahahhaa

eVe "})i({" says: i wanted to say spread the glue over ur eyelids

a i ♥ says: you know the drew the glue that covered the eyes ahaha

eVe "})i({" says: but u went WTF

a i ♥ says: lol

eVe "})i({" says: and i forogt and started laughing and fell off the chair

a i ♥ says: ahahhahaha omg it's so fnnny
a i ♥ says: im saving it

Five minutes after she read it on the blog:

eVe "})i({" says: WTF MAN

a i ♥ says: ahahahahahhahahahaa

eVe "})i({" says: YEA!! spelling errors

a i ♥ says: ahahhahahahaha and when i said this
a i ♥ says: a i ♥ says: you know the drew the glue that covered the eyes ahaha
a i ♥ says: so retarded

eVe "})i({" says:
thanks for sharing my restarded drawings

a i ♥ says:restarded ahahahahahaha

Sorry I know it was painful to read but I still find it funny.

WD-40

So I took a stupid challenge from y.yeo yesterday to prove to her that not everyone knows what wd-40 is. INCASE some of you might not know what it is, its some "penetrating oil spray" (?), widely used around the household.

The reason why I don't know what it is is because I've never used it. Yes, I'm sure dad has used it a million times, but you see I don't see why I have to pay attention to the brand of this oil spray. I mean dad might have used another brand. WD-40 stands for, water displacement-40th formula. Just a Brand people. There are other products out there! I'm pretty sure everyone doesn't use THIS particular brand.

So anyways, I tried to justify myself by putting this on my facebook account :
Ai wants to know if everyone, EVERYONE, knows what wd40 is and if everyone should know what it is. if i get a reply i would be quite impressed.

To my disappointment, 5 people responded to it saying that they know what it is and even mentioning it's purposes. But then again it's 5 people out of so many people I have as "friends". I'm quite sure that at least 30% of them do not know what it is. If you've never used it, seen it, have perfect closet and doors and hinges, I don't see why you should know what it is.

So I might have lost and embarrassed myself in this challenge but at least I know there's one person out there who didn't know what it was and was tormented by the same person. Elaine Yeo; we need to find something that Yvonne Yeo doesn't know about. I'm sure there's something out that there that she doesn't know...product wise that is. lol.

Till then, yvonne, wiki yourself silly.

Oh My Lord..

I was finding for my thumb drive high and low, went through all my notes and messed up my table looking for it.
I sat down for a while, recalling what I used it for before it went missing. Oh yes, I went to uni to transfer a power point presentation to my lecturer's laptop. Musta put it in my pocket after I was done with it.
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Oh wait a minute, I just washed those jeans. wtf. It's been hung to dry for the past 2 days...
Holy crap.. My thumb drive went through the washing machine, a thumb drive without a cover, an Exposed thumb drive. Great...

So I decided to plug it in the laptop to see if it works.



It does.

wow. So interesting.

Wha thaaaa

Update: I shouldn't have went. It was such a weird night.

So I've been procrastinating for the longest time. 3 more weeks before the semester ends, 3 more weeks before I hand in 2 papers worth 60% and prac exams. As much as I love the fact that I only have 2 finals which is the last week of exams, I hate hate to write scientific reports that are worth 60%. Gargh.

I'm going out, but won't drink. I would love to, but my bank doesn't allow me. I suppose it's not that bad of a thing. Better socializing then sitting in my room procrastinating, watching tv series.

Closet, Close set, lost

Who knew sitting in the closet with clothes hanging above your head can be so therapeutic?
It's like a part of you living inside this dark place looking out into the world and the other, just dying to be in that hiding place.
Dark and close, dark and lost.
Cupid did indeed take a piss on me.
Piss on, piss on.
I'll shove that bow up your ass one day..

Crush, What is?

The definition of crush is to:
press or squeeze with a force that destroys;
to destroy, subdue, or suppress utterly;
to hug or embrace forcibly or strongly (wtf?)

- www.dictionary.com

Why do we use the word Crush to express our attraction and feelings of attraction towards someone? Why the word Crush?....

I was walking in the city one day and saw this written on a wall.

The definition of crush is to be hurt.

It's a word filled with so much negativity. So, does that actually imply that all your "crushes" will hurt you, destroy you, damage you?

That's absurd. Someone should seriously take this into consideration; change the term...please?

I need to add a " HAHA ". I'm no depressed okay. haha..I just like to know why..

DIY

After much fiddling around, I managed to make my very own Patrick, Spongie Bob's bestie.



Beats trying to figure out data on excel.

He will be resting on my laptop until he overheats and melts all over it.

Ah, Patrick.

Just admiring

If you have a crush on someone that you're not supposed to have a crush on, just tell people that you're *admiring their beauty. Eye candy is the new love.

* quote from Mel :p

Genius

Ah! Facebook chat is so much fun. LOL.
Me likey.
Good opportunity to ask someone to stalk someone else. No excuse for being lazy to login.