Mel o'Mel

For Mel:
I want to know what happens after you realised that you didn't have money to get home.
Why can't I read it by myself? well..your page is the only site that jams up my firefox. 100 fucking times. I gather that you got home fine because you..managed to tell the story. I want to know! haha, you know what to do.

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The sun is out, clouds in the sky moving too fast for my liking. I'm all bulked up, wearing socks and a scarf around my neck while buried under 2 layers of blanket, trying to read journals for review paper I have to write about the geomorphic impact of tsunami. It's bloody cold (was).

The smoke detector is still beeping, it has been beeping for the past week and it's really driving me up the wall. If I was tall enough, I'd rip that friggin thing off the ceiling.

There's clean washed, semi wet clothes all around my room and it's also starting to piss me off a little because I can't fold them up and put it in the wardrobe where it belongs.

I wish I was a toddler again. Just eat, play and sleep all day long.

Of Tao's and doo's

So I'm currently at my uncle's place and the day has been the funniest. Little It has been cracking me up the whole day. He started making funny faces and jumping like he has cushion under his feet. He's probably the most hyper 2 year old I know. I hope he's the ONly hyper toddler I know.

So, he was playing around and suddenly did this :




It amazed the whole family when I showed them the photo. Apparently he picked up that cardboard rod thingie from his dads room and pretended it was a Didgeridoo (new word I learnt this week lol) with sound effects and all. Mom was wondering how he learnt it and remembered that they went to Hillsville last week and there was this dude that was playing it so little It probably learnt it from him. Monkey see, monkey do. And the whole bowl thing on the floor as well. Blooody cuteee.

Since it was my mom's last day, she's going home tomorrow, my auntie and uncle brought us out for dinner. We went to this restaurant called Tao's somewhere in Bulleen. It's some modern creativie cruisine, chinese korean fusion kinda restaurant. The food was aMazing. The environment is pretty, very pretty and cosy. They have the most interesting cutleries but as my auntie calles them, gadgets. I don't have pictures of the food...because I don't feel like whipping out my camera everytime the food comes..face not thick enough for that, but thick enough to take random pictures of..items placed on the table.







Each of us had 7 dishes, banquette style. It was a 3 hour long dinner. I went from starving to, oh my gawd is this ever gonna end. We ate, waited for 15 minutes, then another dish was served and ate again. I suppose it's to let you enjoy and appreciate the food infront of you, taking it in and experiencing the taste. For $50 a person, it's not too bad.



picture of the family, excluding the uncle, who's taking the photo.

Looking forward to more family bonding like this.

Of bad vision and baby confessions

I've been walking around with a blurred vision for the past few months. It has finally taken a toll on me. I'm starting to feel sick in the stomach everytime I try to focus on the computer screen or trying to see who is walking towards me. My laziness has caused me my sight. I am planning on getting my eyes checked so I can get new contact lenses of the corrent degree of power..soon.

The world is going to be DIFFerent! I'm afraid that when I put on my correct powered contact lenses I will freak because I'm 10 times uglier than I thought I was.. What if my face has degenerated with my sight. What if?? fuck..

I have been going about with vision like this..



and reading words on the screen that look almost like this



I'm more determined to go under the Lazzzer light to get my eyes fixed now. Life would be so perfect then.

Mom is leaving this Sat. I'm sad but happy her for because she misses my dad heaps and can't wait to go back. Those 2 have not been apart this long after being married for 24 years. I'm gonna miss her. No more crazy calls at 8 in the morning asking me if I want to go to some mountain or some vineyard or victoria market. :/

OKay so I admit, I refuse to go to the optometrists because I've never gone to get my eyes checked by myself...I know..what a baby..

Time to grow up I suppose..

Go to heaven

You are absurd. You say the cutest things I've ever heard. I don't think I can take another word. Oh my head might explode and I might have to go to heaven.

Of mind so fickle and confused

You can choose to be rejected by the idealist, punk rocker, hot married guy or smiley baby boy.
Which would you choose?
Mind so fickle and confused, you might choose all of them.

Halo bound energy

Have you ever seen the sun without its ray of light blinding you?

Have you ever seen the sun as just a round ball in the sky, dim in the middle with endless halo like feel surrounding it on the outside?

It's as if the clouds enclosing it absorbed all its life energy bearing purpose to keep us alive.
Letting it rest for just 2 minutes and see how the world survives without it.

It's a beautiful sight.

I'll wait for the day till I see it again, for sight so beautiful should not go without being remembered.

Flaming Lips

Lips a blazing,
Lips so dry,
Lips so tight,
Those lips I'll try.

Lips a pulsing,
Lips that peel,
Lips so red,
For lips to feel.

Set fire to lips that smile,
Set a fire to lips that's mine,
For lips wide shut no soul get through,
So precious gape open and tell the truth.

Lips are hearts and hearts are lips,
For lips that heart are lips in bliss,
So take those lips, those red filled lips,
Take those lips and heart this kiss.

I AM

weird
strange
bizarre
odd
different
peculiar
abnormal.

I am fully aware that I love being weird, strange, bizarre, odd, different, peculiar and abnormal because that shows that I am absolutely nothing like you.

You know what I think?

I

U

Thank You.

Hi I'm from Cuba

So my calves and shoulders came back as another race. I can't really specify which but it looks to me that my calves are from Southern Europe and my shoulders from South America.
And I swear the right side of my face is probably darker than my left, oh with goggle eyes I reckon. Bloody hell. I'm international now alright. Very.

Despite the torturous heat, it was quite an interesting field trip. If I was a smart person I'd type out what we did here ( field trip description), but unfortunately I don't know half of the terms we used. So there goes my weekend, crunch time. Taking a class full of potential environmental scientists and environmental engineers really doesn't intimidate me at all. Nope, the "marine biologist" sure fits in that category as well. We're on the same Boat.

I'm...going to lie down on the floor now next to my fan, my baby and imagine myself back to normal skin colour.

Of sweat, unbearable heat and unruly hair

So I gather that we are finally experiencing summer now. Sweat oozing out my ears as I type this. My fan has been good to me for the past 48 hours because it hasn't stopped revolving. I should give it a rest..don't want to handle an electrical casualty, no not my fan..not my fan.

I might have screwed up the livelihood of my hair by washing it every other hour because of the stupid heat or maybe it's just all the pillows that squash my head while I'm sleeping. 4 pillows, too much?? No wonder I'm sweating, I was insulated in the heat. Gosh, is that a mirage I see in my room?

Ah..I just realised that I have been walking around college with this shirt of mine that I am currently wearing which has a hole right on my boob. Nice. The heat does weird things to you. Makes you do things that you don't normally do, say things you normally wouldn't say, think things that you're not suppose to think. No I'm not doing any of those. What are you thinking? STOP IT.

Oh no, I just realise that I have to go to Seaford Beach tomorrow for a field trip. It's going to be 35 Bloooooody degrees. 8 am- 4pm. I'm going to come back another race! OH my gawd. I am going to be coming back another race aren't I? crap. crap. crap. I guess I can try a new approach by telling people that I'm not from Malaysia but in fact I'm from Africa. I was adopted by a really nice family whose cattle herd has made them the wealthiest among the people of black cow village. I'm studying marine biology because I hate black cows and white people scare me but I'm intrigued by the species.

oh shut up.

ps: Is this post a complaint?? cos if it is...there goes my 4 days of not complaining. 4 days straight mind you!

Not If but when

If you want that something, that someone that you so love, that clothing item that you've been dying to put on, visit that place you've always wanted to visit, eat the food you've always wanted to eat but most of all be the person you've always wanted to be, then do me a favor. Just close your eyes and.....

Naked towel wait.

I've been waiting for the longest time to take a shower. The vacuum is buzzing outside. Every Wednesday, cleaning day for the floor. I've put a " No Cleaning, Thank You! =) " sign outside my door because I don't want them to be barging in while I'm sitting on my chair right now in a towel.

I'm glad I'm kinda an early person now. If I went out last night and drank myself silly, I would be in a very pissy mood right now because the cleaners just cannot stop talking. They'd go into one room, clean it, come out and start yabbing again. 20 ish rooms to clean, 20 times more talking.

Anyways, lately I've been distracting myself with lots of drawing . I don't normally find a joy in it because I'm not a creative kinda person. And it frustrates me when I can't get it right. I can't imagine something in my head and draw it out perfectly. I havee done some but they're at the minimal scale. What I can do is copy. I look at things and copy. Don't ask me to draw a face looking at me though because it might come out looking like someone else totally different, someone quite impersonal I reckon, like cold heart bitch.

I THINK THE SHOWER IS FREE!

Instead of studying, I'm

I feel like posting pictures

Another one of those

I suppose another good thing that came from the past 2 weeks is my lack of dependence on the internet. Yes, I'm still on windows live everyday- it's my communication with the outside world a.k.a living on campus. I also suppose it's the lack of internet quota given to me. If you haven't already known, it's 2 gigs ( rounded up) a semester. Thats FOUR months. I've already used up 100 mbs in 22 hours. I need to cut down even more. I don't want to end up spending money just to buy internet credit like last year.

So, my room is kinda empty. I look around and can't help but cringe at one spot on my wall that is blank. A huge big blank. I'm currently creatively challenged. But that doesn't matter because I'm surprised at myself by popping into the library yesterday to borrow a book, to study! Being in 3rd year really really has kicked in. It's good I suppose. It's my last year and I've got to make the best out of it. So far so good.

Mel/Nat if you guys are reading this, I just want to say I MISS YOU GUYS! Sorry for being MIA. Will talk to you guys soon alrighty. LOves xx

the good and the fugly

As predicted, I wouldn't be blogging so much when uni starts. It's only when I'm absolutely bored that I think of everything to blog about.
The last 10 days has been awesome. Hung out with my bestie, out everyday and night. It has been a blast. Took heaps of photos which are currently being displayed on facebook. All the good and the fugly. I'm glad I didn't have to be the one to load it.
Anyways, am back in col and this is the first time in 3 months that I am actually sleeping on my own bed. Feels great.
hmm. yup. nothing to say. till the next time i get frustrated or bored.