Just a thought

Nothing you have is truly yours. We're renting everything in life, even the things we buy. When the lease ends, we've got to give it back.

Monday Blues

Monday blues. Shower dilemma.
It's 215 am and I'm thinking if I should get up and shower...hmmm..

Random facts: I can't speak English. I have the worst pronunciations and the inability to use words properly. 13 years of English classes clearly did not help. I blame the matter-down to every single cell that my skull protects.

Magic

Magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.
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Magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.
Magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.
Magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.
Magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.
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Magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.magic.
I Want A Little Magic.

Such a shame

Such a shame and what a waste. What A Waste.
The heart has given up but the brain hasn't.
Eyes so blurry, you could hardly see.
It's 330 am and its time to sleep...

Nutshelling

Everyone needs to have someone to summarize their day with.
Where is mine?

Pretty's out, Nothing's in

It really works. Pushing all that prettiness out and dwelling on nothing. Makes my nights soundless and peaceful.

We effect other people's lives on so many levels. I'm sure everyone needs a break from it, once in a while. I'm going to take a permanent break from it. I'm sure we're going to agree on this one.

We're Even

Plants hate me too.
How to make me realise that I have been screwing up this stupid plant subject?
Having the lowest mark in class...three times in a row, that's how.
Out of 20 odd people, I'm apparently the most brilliant one.
urghh....
shootme!
stabme!
killme now!

Self-Incompatibility

Why in the world do i need to know why some plants do not self-fertilize?
It's not like they find a joy in fertilizing anyways. Whats the point? Asexual all the way. Leave the sexual to the other living beings with feelings.
i hate plants...

Homeostasis

The brain melts and fluids dry out with heat like these.

lukewarmthoughts

I'm sitting right in the middle of a see-saw now and it feels good.
Normally, I would have been on one end or the other, alone .
Or being on the higher end trying to get back down. People getting in my way.
I have decided to push everyone else off my see-saw and learned the 'ol balancing act.
being in the center, center of my own universe.

I love the feeling I had today. The feeling where nothing can bring you down, nothing else matters but what you want to feel. That inner peace kinda feeling.

I know what has been bringing me down, making me impossible to sleep every night. I've known what has been bothering me all along but just did not want to tell anyone about. Something I still won't tell if asked.
It only takes time to kill that thought and I suppose time decided not to waste on me anymore.

If I die tomorrow, No Regrets. :)

....but if I'm still alive, I definitely would not quiting ranting.

No.. GD.. way.

We are stupidly clever.

Had chat with Nat on facebook and was inspired to write about the odd things Mel, Nat and I used to do to humour ourselves.

- We would take turns to study in the bathroom in Mel's place before the exams. (weird...weird)

- Mel and I had a "secret book" where we wrote absolute bullshit because Nat and her friend had one and we couldn't read it, being jealous and all, we thought we would make one ourselves and not let Nat read it. ( Nat we knew what was in your book anyways lol)

- Mel and I hid under my bed while my brother was having tuition in the same room. We were sweating under the bed for about 30 minutes before we got busted. ( Mel, if your mom hadn't called, we would have been there till the end!). The embarrassing part about this was that my brother's tuition teacher was..OUr tuition teacher as well...

- We used to fart in pools. "QUICK, go under and see the bubbles!" giggles giggles and more giggles.

- Hey Nat remember the YMCA camp. OML.

- Waking up at 630/645 am on a Sunday morning for tennis lessons with cockface and his precious lecture on life. The whole bitching session we have right behind him and trying to aim the tennis ball at him. "Beautiful memories". oh and not to mention Mel's weak ankles, almost tripped all the time while walking back home.

- Giving fluffy a piece of cheese to make sure she doesn't follow us when we want to leave Mel's house. " Ohkay when i give her the cheese you guys run out okay! " good ol dog..

- " The car broke down infront of my house....."

- OH MS TILAGA! the one who ran away with our money. ( Were we that hard to teach??? )

- Ringing all the door bells in the KJ apartment. I'd be the chicken, waiting in the elevator so that when you guys run back in I'd press the close button really quickly.

- Talking to each other upside down and laugh cos it looked really weird.

- In Mel's car
Me: Look at that yellow house. I think it's really nice.
Mel: Where??
( Mel looked to the left, car went up the left curb in the middle of the road, we freaked out "Screamed ")

haha that's all i have at the top of my head. If you guys remember more stuff, write write.
It's funny just think about it again.



Love you guys
xx

Barren

I don't want you to see me,
to see me down bare,
to see who I really am.

It's hard enough to love the inside,
let alone love the outside.

I'm a barren land.

Still a bitch

I honestly thought yesterdays mental drama was just a one off thing. I woke up feeling like the biggest bitch on earth. But no worries, karma kicked this bitch in the ass.
21 degrees today, nice and sunny. A nice little top/dress would to do today, so i said. Stepped out into the streets to get some lunch and noticed people were looking at me.
In my mind i was like " What?? Its WARM! don't like it sue me. i just bought it".
Being curious and all, i decided to look at my reflection.. and to my biggest horror, guess what i saw?
Highways running along my butt. I knew something was wrong when i wore the dress, what was wrong was the damn Underwear i was wearing! How embarrasing...i almost wanted to run to a corner and not move and just scream at everyone who looked at me to fuck off and die..(haha, not really).
But those underwear with a dress made out of really thin material. BRAgh! I'm glad i'm in my room right now, hiding in my little corner aka room.

oh and do you know what else pissed me off? The contact lenses that i've been wearing for the past 2 days. I keep on thinking it's an eyelash that has gotten stuck between my eye and the lenses. I would have dug my eyes out trying to find for that non existent lash of mine. I decided i had enough of it so i took it out, just to find that that stupid lenses were actually torn. I've been wearing torn lenses.
Can you blame me for being so cynical and bitchy? urgh.
I'm sure after she leaves i'm going to feel much better. soon..soon. another 15 minutes.
AH, GONE GONE!

very cynical

I'm in the most cynical mood right now. It's clearly one of those days where I just want to sit in my room and procrastinate. But...no. I wasn't able to sit down and waste time, I had to be a good girl and do what a good girl/niece is supposed to do. I've been having bad thoughts and malicious words running through my head the whole day and I DON'T know when it's going to stop.
STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP! Argh.
I'm such a hypocrite.
Last post: no more emo stuff.
This post: fuck you last post. I'm going to rant all I want.
Retail therapy Doesn't work on me. 3 new tops = 3 new combination of bad words.
!@#@$ $%^# #$@^

Delete

Decided to delete my depressing posts..2007 is almost deleted, next 2006 and 2005. i'll prolly only keep the ones that i like. no more being all pseudo-depressed about life.

update: all post gone.