A new path?

I woke up with an epiphany. Many times I have thought about it, but today, for some odd reason it became really clear to me. My body tensed and my heart raced just at the thought of it. Is it possible? Can it actually happen to me? I've been given second chances to do what I want and this feels like it.

I called my mom out of excitement. I guess I started off the conversation in a very worrying way. I told her about my plans and to much disappointment, she was discouraged by my thoughts and plans. I understand her point of view and I totally understood her sighs. She said, "I thought you've got everything planned out? I really hope you graduate soon. It's starting to weight us down."

I felt bad even suggesting it, only because it's my life. But yes, I do see the bigger picture, I still need my parents to give me this life that I want. I know it's a risk to take but I'm going to do it, that is if I am given the chance to do so. It's a 50/50 chance of getting what I want at this point.

I know many silently laugh in their mind or even give me a smirk when I say, " Yes, I'm definitely going to get a job this time". After many attempts, I'm still jobless. But I hope I'm not underestimated again because this time it really does involve me getting a job next semester. This plan wouldn't work if I don't earn my own money, at least enough to feed and house myself after I move out of college. It's so simple just to think of it. I have to do it sooner or later so why not start now. Many might think that I'm a little bit too late but it's never too late for anything right?

Time to start moving.