Goodness me

So guess what I did today?

I ran. (Big smiley face)

Well for a total of 5 minutes I reckon, the rest of the 40 minutes were spent walking.

GOsh, I did not expect my stamina to be that Shite. I was talking myself through the route last night and I was determined to go all the way. Mind you, this is my first run this year, it's June. The first 1 minute was torture. My chest muscles must be thinking this " WHAT the Fcuk is going on, what the fuck is this, is she running, what the fuck is she thinking, we're not ready for this!!!".

I swear I could have had an asthma attack or something. But I was determined, actually more like embarrassed so I kept on going aka walking, real fast. Half way through, my ears were aching, my chest and throat were sore, my leg muschleess...let's not even go there. The best part was not breaking a sweat. Gargh. Useless.

Once I reached back, I walked right to the kitchen and got a Big Jug of water. Gawd, it felt good. I should have had something to eat before attempting to exercise...Mistake taken into account.

Just when I told myself, maybe running is not for me, I logged on to my iGoogle and read this : (my daily horoscope on igoogle).

You may start your day by running into unexpected obstacles, but this isn't time to quit. Stand firm and focus your energy on overcoming whatever is in your way. Giving up won't get you any closer to your goals and it will encourage you to doubt your abilities. Your persistence may be rewarded quicker than you think.

HAHAHA, hillarious. At this point, I'm going to be believe in anything and every thing. So MAYBE I might even try running again tomorrow.

I'm a pig

Ever ever idiot

Ever had that feeling where you felt this urge to do something unnecessary against your will, something that you don't ever do, or catch yourself doing, just to speak to someone?

Ever overcome those feelings by pulling yourself off the chair and do something about it?

Ever had that conversation with yourself saying, 'You can do this, you can do this!', all the way to that destination of unwillingness?

Ever reached to that destination and realised that there is no one there to greet you despite the fact that you know that someone Might be there? So you linger for a while and say hello again, but all you get is the feedback of your own echo?

and ever felt like an idiot right after while walking back to your chair?

Ever had that need to go under your sheets, face stuffed into your pillow and scream?

yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes and yes.

Idiot.

Salut.

stop thinking about it. stop!!

Not again!!!

When did my heart go missing? I feel it now.

Oh the heaviness.

Who feels happy after drinking?

*hands up, wave all about*

yea.....