Friend, acquaintances, foe

Sometimes I really wonder if the person you're constantly around with is a friend, an acquaintance or a foe. When you're living a small community ie boarding house, dormitory, small town etc. , these 3 different ways of calling a person have really blurred lines between them.

Many people have different definitions of the word "friend"and many of them have gone back on their definitions by doing many unfriendly, idiotic, stupid things. I think the definition of the word "friend" should be love, mutual love.Think about all the people that you regard as friends. Do you love all of them? I think not. Do they all love you? I think not.

I think of all the people I call my friends and ask myself, do I actually care about every single one of them? And my answer would be...I don't know. There are friends whom I would do almost anything for but these people are in my exclusive list because I know they would do the same for me. But there are some people that I call friends that probably wouldn't genuinely care if I went missing. I'm not saying that I haven't done my share in pretending to be friends. I have and I'm not proud of it. They who do it are probably not as well.

I guess I don't like how my feelings towards someone are easily influenced by things that they do. Good one day and bad the other. I like to believe that there is good in everyone and that "ridiculous, no brainer" things that they do are just mistakes. Ridiculous irrational mistakes.

The bottom line is I just wish that you would treat me as your friend as how I treat you as mine. You don't need a reason to talk to someone. If they're your friends, you can talk to them anytime, anywhere. If this friendship is not going to be mutual then I'm just going to do my best to make the best out of it this year and hope to make better ones with others next year. Cos who knows where I'm going to be next year.