Of bad vision and baby confessions

I've been walking around with a blurred vision for the past few months. It has finally taken a toll on me. I'm starting to feel sick in the stomach everytime I try to focus on the computer screen or trying to see who is walking towards me. My laziness has caused me my sight. I am planning on getting my eyes checked so I can get new contact lenses of the corrent degree of power..soon.

The world is going to be DIFFerent! I'm afraid that when I put on my correct powered contact lenses I will freak because I'm 10 times uglier than I thought I was.. What if my face has degenerated with my sight. What if?? fuck..

I have been going about with vision like this..



and reading words on the screen that look almost like this



I'm more determined to go under the Lazzzer light to get my eyes fixed now. Life would be so perfect then.

Mom is leaving this Sat. I'm sad but happy her for because she misses my dad heaps and can't wait to go back. Those 2 have not been apart this long after being married for 24 years. I'm gonna miss her. No more crazy calls at 8 in the morning asking me if I want to go to some mountain or some vineyard or victoria market. :/

OKay so I admit, I refuse to go to the optometrists because I've never gone to get my eyes checked by myself...I know..what a baby..

Time to grow up I suppose..