Hershey's and all their kisses

So far I'm enjoying living here in the suburbs. It's been a long time since I felt like I was in a home. As much as I dread coming here sometimes, I'm glad I did this time. Nothing is better than being with family. I guess the bigger picture is that mom is here. Everything at it's greatest.
Out of the million things I asked mom to bring over for me I only ended up getting 2 of them. My Anne Rice books and Hershey's. One...packet of Hershey's kisses and it's not even the one I wanted. I assumed my pig of a brother actually ate them all. But almonds are good enough. I love almonds.

Since being here I have had heaps on time on my hands to think about stuff. I talked to Drey a few days ago about the situation I'm currently facing and my feelings towards it. I wasn't planning on actually mentioning it to anyone but being me and all I have to, for my own sake. I realise I have too much of a pride to actually let this float away. I never knew I had that much pride. But having a certain amount of pride is a good thing, right? Over the years I have been able to d e t a c h myself from a lot of things. I call it being heartless. But its very contradicting because I always dwell on things. So being heartless but still wanting to dwell? I'm one confused being.

Conclusion to this situation: putting it in an imaginary box, attached it to an anchor and throwing it far far out into the ocean. I don't want to destroy it, memories are meant to be kept. So I decided that it will be kept intact but far far away from me. How awesome is my logic.

I would lovee to actually type out my situation here but I have never done that before on a blog. Everything is vague, no one normally knows what I'm going on about unless they ask me about it. One major rule: no names. So what's the point in having a blog? I don't knoowww. It shows what kinda person I am I suppose. Vague with major trust issues. No one will really know whats going on...haha I'm not straight out like Slee. Goodness that boy can really write whatever he is feeling and I admire him for that.. stop eating maccas slee.

Anyways, since being here I realised that time passes quite fast. I haven't been bored which is really good. I've been going to bed freakishly early. The quietness of it all. I'm going to love living in the subs. Who needs a city life? Once a week maybe.

I should stop typing but I don't want to...yyeo where are you?